Tuesday, September 13, 2011;
♥ 4:37 AM
Yes i miss home so badly, feel like skyping home these few days but always didnt manage to get the timing right. Miss my mom, my bro, my friends back home.
Had such a horrible day today. Actually the past few days hasn't really been good, since the day i arrived and moved in. Checking in with a States girl isn't really helping cos she's just un-contactable. Like she just knocked on my door at like 830am this morning telling me we actually have to be there at like 930am, when we were supposed to meet at like 1130am cos we thought out stuff was at 2pm. I didn't know why i didnt receive the email from the coordinator! My friend could have just fb-ed me and told me anyway whether i might see it or not. Yeah so i was like rushing to school alone for the first time, and i got a bit lost at first.
The briefing today was totally in french, and i could only pick up bits and pieces of it. But the lady was briefed us was nice enough cos i asked everything in english. Then it took us abt an hour of queueing here and there just to get our card for the restaurants in school, and to top it up, until the restaurants closed alr, so we tried the sandwich bar, but everything was sold out. Lucky i brought my yogurt out which was supposedly breakfast. Then the library tour, was in french again, didnt really know what she was talking either. I need a buddy with me 24/7 man, until everything is settled. Gosh. but glad i met this Belgium girl and another states girl. The Belgium girl was really nice, she offered to help and stuff. I shall just look her up for help as and when. It was another long queue to get the tag card. I don't know why its such long queues everywhere. I'm just so annoyed.
Then we managed to catch the shuttle svc up to our hostel. Doesn't shuttle svc means its free by its own? Apparently its not! And just so happen there were a grp of tickets checkers waiting for us at the bustop. Cos we didnt get a ticket, they wanted us to pay like 40 euros. WTH. i was trying to say it's my first time and i really didnt know, and i thought it was free. We didn't understand them and they didn't understand us. Lucky i had my tag card, cos its like concession. And my friend has the ticket from the tram which is valid for 1 hr. So we were both saved. Gosh.
Finally got back and i really felt like crying, wanted my mom so badly. But thank God i met sijie and friends tdy at school to help us a bit. I really thought i could do it alone, but apparently no i couldn't, i really need friends and family around me. Or should i just stick up with the Chinese peeps up 2 levels and include myself in them. At least i'll feel a little closer to home.
I dno, now im thinking, was this a wrong choice to begin with. Why on earth did i get myself into such an adventure. It's a bit too overwhelming, i kinda cant handle it. It might just be more nights filled with tears. Nights like these, i always wanted to find someone to talk to, but no one is really online at this time on the other side ):
Just remebered that i still have Big Daddy up there. Im not alone afterall. I miss church, i miss tuanqi, i miss choir. I miss SINGAPORE!
C'mon kat you're better than this, don't let the french bring you down yo! A pass is all you need! GO KAT GO!
Dear Father, i pray for strength and wisdom to carry on every single day. Amen!
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
