Wednesday, April 29, 2009;
♥ 11:56 AM
yes my prayers are finally answered!
i have been checking my letter box these few days, but disappointment has been knocking on my door. but ytd guess i was rushing home to catch fighting spiders, so think i just forgot all abt it. then my bro came home (cos usually he'll be the one taking all the letters) and said, kat you've gt mail! your long awaited letter. my eyes lit up then i joked and said ltr they send letter to say 'we regret to inform you....' haha. actually the anxiety wasnt really there cos i was watching teevee luh! lol. so i just open and i saw PSYCHOLOGY in bold. i was super happy lemme tell you. you dno how happy i was. words just cant describe tht feeling. hahaha. and there isnt any interview or test or whatsoever. hoho! then thru the night i just kept smiling to myself, literally. LOLS. my mum kept teasing me cos she knew how anxious i was and say wah finally gt uni wanna accept you alr uh, happy right. haha.
bt really, its god's grace and provision. cos i really have no idea wht are the odds of me getting my 1st choice as cut off for NTU psy was like BBB/B. im no where near confident. i knew my grades arent deserving of the course, bt god still granted my wish (: so praise the lord! im still waiting for NUS thou. and if they offer FASS, i really dno wht to choose. cos NTU offers direct honours, bt NUS will only offer honours if you're a worthy recepient. bt NUS is like how freaking near my hse man, just cant wait to enjoy the CONVENIENCE of it, seriously. and NTU is like so bloody far. ugh. we'll see how it goes aye. and i got to know tht a teacher's starting pay is damn good aye. like 3300 for degree holders, 4000 for honours. gosh! cos SG needa 7200 teachers currently. so tempted to pursue a teacher's career now! haha. nah, i'll see if God grants me the passion to do so. Teaching really requires passion to teach aye, if nt life wlf be hell everyday. how abt psychiatrist? bt think tht needa take doctorate or smth in order to prescribe. or who knows i might end up as a SALES or event planner or project manager? haha. interesting aye.
anw yeah the swine flu thing is becoming a big issue. as big as or might be even bigger then bird flu. cos swine flu originated frm pigs, bt its just a mutated form of flu. bt it seems more hazardous than avian flu cos swine flu spreads quickly frm human to human, thou it might be contracted by eating pork itself. the fact tht it spreads across the whole globe, frm mexico all the way to new zealand alr, shows how serious the situation is. up frm 80+ deaths to 150+ alr in mexico, and europe and asia have already been infected. heard frm my company sales tht SG might be infected too. theres 2 undergoing investigation, might be, bt nt confirmed. so guess it aint reported yet, cos they dont wanna alert the public first in any case its a false alarm, cos speculations can have serious consequences. then the sales boss also tell them if nth urgent, try not to come into the office, cos the sales go to hospitals frequently to meet customers and prof and stuff. yeah so you nv know who's infected alr. then the females sales was also saying tht she's gna santize herself, wash her hair, bathe, change and everything before she goes home and carry her baby. and her clothes must be washed immediately, no more soaking. then needa start buying masks and etc. sounds v kaisu and kiasi, but she's just doing everything to ensure theres no room for any risks, esp for her kid and her baby.
cos the avian flu really took a lot of lives. yeah so once bitten twice shy. had gone thru e experience of it, everyone is really sticking out their butts and being very wary of it. everyone now has a better idea of wht to do, how to prevent from being at risk of exposure to the flu and stuff. so maybe the avian flu was like a prelude for us to all these aye?
and yay i got my pay check tdy! bt the money will prolly be in only by mon -.- brrr i hate this.
anw gna catch manutd-arsenal tmr morn!
and tmr is the last work day for the week! yay! cant wait (: cos im gg bonkers facing all these numbers =s ) and im finally learning to appreciate wht labour day really means. hoho.
dinner with 4h lovelies on sat. and maybe playing tennis w dear in the morn. woohoo!
It's never too late;as long as you stay
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
Thursday, April 23, 2009;
♥ 1:00 PM
just yesterday my mum told me tht in saturday's papers they said getting into fass this yr is very competitive cos courses like banking and finance, commerce has cut their student intake hence their nxt best option wld be fass-economics, or...smth else. i dno. i nv ever actually considered the possibility of me nt being able to get into a local uni. bt as time goes by, this possibility is getting more and more realistic. so yeah now im actually thinking abt my plan B. i wld really want to go ahead and pursue my AVIATION MGMT at aus or smth. money wise i have no idea. i'll think abt it then. i'll find a way, somehow.
anw, my all time fave:
Aslyn - That's when i love youWhen you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you endlessly
And when you're mad cause you lost a game
Forget im waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn the more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie, it made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you can't quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you more than you know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway
Reminds me of phuong...and many other lil stuff...
meeting gf ltr aft tuition. like finally (:
we were only lil kids back then;
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
Tuesday, April 21, 2009;
♥ 12:16 PM
ahh im so pissed with the mgmt, so they've decided to block out my one and only hope and source of entertainment left - youtube! ): cos tdy my usual lunch buddies went to jp to gt food for comm session ltr, and due to space constraints of a car, i stayed in and was getting kinda bored and thought i could watch survivor cos the last epi i fell aslp of all at the last part - tribal counsel. so i didnt know who gt voted out! bleah. yeah and now they blocked it. sucks man, maybe nxt time i shld bring my own lappy too, just like the IT guy ( i saw him watching youtube like just an hour ago, brrrr!)okay yes so here i've decided to blog. sigh. the other day i was looking at my colleague doing experiments/testings for our products. it was to see if our products' tubing wld break or leak or smth when immersed in hot water. then she repeated the exp for different batches of products. its then i realise how much i miss science, how much im gna miss science if i gt in fass. its gna be like bye bye science forever. i chose fass definitely nt cos i hated sci, or cos i realised sci is not my cup of tea aft 18 yrs, but merely cos i was MORE interested in people. so im nt gna die if i gt in enginerring instead of fass. im fine with science, in fact i like science. i mean i find it very interesting, knowing abt everything else ard you, how it works and stuff. but guess my interest lies on the surface only, dont think i can cope with too much depth and details and stuff. yeah im gna miss PHYSICS and CHEMISTRY - organic chem, metals, ionic equilibrium, mol, reactions, kinetics etc and dynamics, forces, waves, SHM, G/E-fields, quantum, lasers (i rmb how much pain it took me to really understand quantum); non-stop naggings frm K and countless practice ws and tests to drill us; the fear of DK cos he's rumoured to be one of the fiercest phy tutors ard, bt aft 1st yr, we cant really be bothered with them anymore and he wasnt tht fierce with us anymore. haha i cant believe i actually doze off during many of his tuts.and just the other day zm asked me some summation qns and i feel so sad tht i cant really rmb how to do them anymore ): yeah i miss doing math too, smth i used to be so gd at once (well nt tht gd in JC, bt in sec sch) - all the partial fractions, APGP, MI, graphs, inequalities, vectors, complex, stats, maclaurin's, GC etc etc. yeah and i actually kinda forgot how to use my GC alr =x math and science is just smth im so familiar with all my 18 yrs. like when it comes to hw, i always prefer to do math and science rather than gp and econs. prolly cos math is science is smth tangible like proving and theres always a fixed answer or concept to it. while gp and econs is just so open-ended, there isnt a specific right/wrong. maybe thts why its ever so hard to grasp and define. anw gf has passed the 1st evaluation for her EHL hotel school! selection test in 2 wks. damn happy for her, think its gna be switz for her man baby! damn, she's nt even leaving yet bt im alr starting to think how much im gna miss her. cos its gna be wht 5 yrs? hope she comes back every summer. ahhh...maybe i shld start preparing her farewell gift. haha. well, 6 yrs and counting.. <3Without loveLife is like the seasons with No summer; Without love Life is rock 'n' roll without A drummer;Without love Life is like a beat that you can't follow;Wihout loveLife is like a prom that won't invite us;Without loveLife's getting my big break and laryngitis;Without loveLife's a '45' when you can't buy itLike a week that's only mondaysOnly ice cream never sundaesLike a circle with no centerLike a door marked "do not enter!"beautiful imperfection;
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
Friday, April 17, 2009;
♥ 8:07 AM
haha yes i couldnt believe i actually stayed up to watch soc ytd the day before. i must be outta my mind or smth. lols. cos my bro's friends came over to watch soc. so i was thinking how rare it is tht there's someone to watch soc with. surprisingly i wasnt really THAT tired, must be tully's. bt it aint tht bad, its actually quite nice aye. met sm for dinner before tht. initially at wcp, bt ended up at hawker cos we didnt know wht to eat. and the guy at tully's counter serving us was so funny la. haha. then came over to dwl smth prog cos her lap cant. bt she was so pek cek with my lap cos it was so fringging S-L-O-W. yea its time to get a new one!
anw back to soc. we were supposed to watch it tgt la, bt ended up only me and one of his friends watched -.- but nvm im still happy cos man utd won! and its CR who scored! such a beautiful shot. woohoo (: bt i think van der sar is really like the best goalie in the world man, he's just superb. man utd FTW! anw i felt kinda bad cos guess his friend wanted to watch the arsenal match cos he's arsenal fan. oops. nvm. we can watch the nxt match tgt - man utd & arsenal. ahh i kinda miss talking abt man utd with jtoh. hah.
tht acccounts for me falling aslp at work ytd =x oops. haha. i was so fed up with my kid ytd cos he's been giving me some shit attitude. can see tht he's tired. but hey im freaking tired too la can. and i still came. i cld have just called and said im nt feeling well or smth, bt i still went okay (well thou its nt like he wants to have tuition) bt his exams are coming and i gotta complete the syllabus by ytd and start revision nxt lesson onwards. compo also anyhow do, ask him read also dont wanna read properly, his heart's just not there la. so i had such a hard time explaining stuff to him man.
anw think this song is really sweet:
Atlantic Star - AlwaysGirl you are to me all that a woman should be
And I dedicate my life to you always.
A love like yours is rare
It must have been sent from up above
And I know you'll stay this way, for always.
And we both know that our love will grow
And forever it will be, you and me. (yeah)
Ooh you're like the sun, chasing all of the rain away.
When you come around you bring brighter days.
You're the perfect one, for me and you forever will be.
And I will love you so, for always.
Come with me my sweet, let's go make a family.
They will bring us joy, for always.
Oh boy I love you so, I can't find enough ways to let you know,
But you can be sure I'm yours, for always.
shit man im starting to worry abt my uni app. cos most of my friends have gotten their letters of acceptance/ notification of tests & interviews and stuff alr. like tiffy's gg for her dentistry interview & test. so is simin, for her architecture. wq got in ntu acct, congrats yo. but i still didnt receive anything! ): wht if i cant get into any uni? shucks. god bless me man =x
let's kick some balls;i need some intensive training
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
Wednesday, April 15, 2009;
♥ 12:27 PM
yup its lunch break now and im done eating (:
my colleague's mp4 player is on loudspeaker and there's the song 'without you' by air supply.
and i smiled to myself as scenes of anyi, ping ping, jason and friends over at mae sa long mission trip singing ''can lee...if libulibudoubt you" came flashing across my mind. LOLS! yea its frm american idol or smth, some bulgarian singer or smth like tht. its supposed to be " cant live, if living is without you" HAHA! miss those good old days spent in mae sa long with the crazy bunch, crapping, laughing, singing, spilling our hearts out, fighting against the wind on the pickup truck, bathing in super cold water, playing with oreo (the black and white puppy), eating full 3 meals a day with super nice veg, strawberry and banana pocky-ing, honey lemon green-teaing, cementing, bricking, digging shit hole, tieing metal rods tgt with the nail, playing with all the lil kids at home and at sch etc...
anw, got this frm tiffy's:
'its funny how when we were still skipping to primary school with our cartoon printed backpacks we envied the lives of adults and hoped to grow up faster.maybe simply because they have more freedom, to do whatever they desire.
however, when we finally got a taste of adult hood, we realised such freedom actually comes with heavy responsibilities.it isnt just about going to sch, studying, making new friends, having the latest gadgets and at the end of the day, returning home to a table of your favourite food for dinner.it is about HOW to get all those things that you used to take for granted, which you conveniently just had to ask your parents for and they simply GAVE it to you.now you have to EARN it.'
this is so thought provoking and sentimental. i agree, i totally agree. i guess the most basic principle of human its tht we're just nv contented or happy with wht we have at present. and as humans, we often like to look back - 'if only i had done this...', 'if only i had chosen...' etc, a whole lot more 'if onlys'. well you cant say tht its smth bad tht we must change, or we must do smth to counter this problem. or rather you cant really define it as a problem in the first place, its a phenomenom emerged frm human nature. so its basically just inevitable. only thing we can do is how to deal with it, how to react alongside it for the better of mankind, so tht it doesnt hinder our growth. and yes now we have to EARN for things which were once so easily given to us, WORRY abt things which we nv had to worry abt, and LEARN things which can nv be taught bt only to experience it ourselves. and wht are all these for? to prepare us for adulthood as we'll all grow to become like our parents one day.
i dont wanna grow up, bt to say the truth, i cant wait to go back to school to study again. im serious. haha. if nt my brain will just rot away in time to come. i want some new knowledge, new insights, new experiences, new people, new friends, new environment, new responsibilities and new life. learning is fun, its just the exam part tht sucks. but we all go thru it, so whts e big deal?
think im gna continue with street jazz 2 (: okay i better call them ltr. then after this i'll prolly take up french in june. im so excited to learn french again. french is love man <3
i think 'fighting spiders' is nice, its a very old school feeling, it makes me laugh a lot. Esp charlie is super cute cos he's just so chubby! still rmb him being xiao hu lu in some chi drama - think its double happiness or the one abt fishball business or smth, cant rmb.
and my boss just offered me a delifrance kiwi fruit tart! goodness, its heaven man (: i love its fruit tarts, esp its crust! its just MEGA nice (: bt its been such a long time ever since i last ate delifrance fruit tarts. i love the peach tarts the most. bt somehow i just stopped eating them, prolly cos i dont live near any delifrance! and its price increased! ): okay i shall be determined to buy one the very nxt time i pass by a delifrance! hoho!
and i happen to see this on tv ytd. its at a wake, the wife was saying a few words abt her husband who died. so she started by talking abt things tht happened in bed - his snoring tht sounds like starting a car engine; and his fart, tht sounds like a dog barking. LOLS! then she said: 'but it's all these little imperfections tht made him perfect for me'. and tht sentence immediately struck me like a thunder bolt, somehow. its such a sweet and lovely but yet honest thing to say.
i rmb i used to hear abt fighting for your one true love bla bla bla etc and stuff like tht. bt as i grow older, i come to a realisation and acceptance tht lovers in love mutually may not really be meant for each other. cos of every other and any other reason you cld think of due to the given circumstances and consequences. sometimes, we'll nv know why, bt we just have to accept it, or rather, we will just accept it as time goes. then you think to yourself, then, whts the whole point? aiya, i no longer know wht im thinking. haha. its just messy and confusing. so i shall just leave this hanging here then. heh =x
i feel so stupid
smiling at myself all the time
whenever i think of you
wht wld you do if you're rejected
cos he/she fell for your best friend?
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
Tuesday, April 14, 2009;
♥ 11:00 AM
yes im finally back at work after a long break in hk (well 10 days is considered relatively long) haha.shopped a lot, ate a lot, met up with many of my relatives - both paternal and maternal side. and yes i experienced the excitement of going to the airport, checking in, taking the plane and taking the bus to my uncle's place all alone! in addition to that, i was desperately looking for an atm to pay my uni app fees! oh and i met jian at the airport! haha. well the weather is pretty cooling-cold the first few days - like the aircon is blowing at you 24/7. LOLS
30th: touchdown
31st: shopping alone cos everyone is at work. but 6th uncle met me during his lunch hour. i finally got my external hard disk! 320gb. my uncle is really so nice to get it for me (: cos my music and photos is occupying near all of my lappy's memory, which is making it run damn slow (thou i also think its time to change cos its a lousy free lappy passed down frm my bro, so tht makes it like 4-5 yrs old alr? yeah and i think i'll be getting one with the uni (: cant wait!). shopped at lai chi kok and i bought LOTS of clothes. wanted to buy more, bt think i gotta save some for the rest of the days. lols. there's seriously too much stuff to see and buy. i got kinda tired and restless and decided to go home. can you imagine? goodness.
1st: nora brought me ard. had steamboat for dinner.
2nd: big uncle and auntie jane brought me ard sham sui po. mum came at night! (:
3rd: nora brought us to another island to see the 'noah's ark' with the exact dimensions mentioned in the bible, but we realised it isnt open to public YET -.- so we went to the eco-park beside it. it's quite nice actually. the whole theme is like based on love, cos the owner of it is a christian, so like the whole park design and deco is very much love-based. it's really beautiful. and there were a few couples having their wedding photoshoot over there (:
4th: had lunch with both big and 6th uncle
5th: had lunch with 2nd paternal aunt, bro came at night and dinner with big aunt
6th: big and 2nd aunt brought us to macau! its a real dazzling place with all the bright and colourful lights of the casinos - they are everywhere, literally. went to a few famous ones, like the venetian and stanely ho's both new and old casino - lisboa, which are side by side just across the road. but its really really really nice, esp at night. And in the venetian mall its just a replica of the venetian city, the buildings, the river, the boat and they even painted the fake sky on the ceiling. its really cool luh, seriously. i was quite amused and amazed. haha. we also went to the very famous ruins of the St. Paul's Cathedral. Many architecture is european style and everything had portugese translation, even shop names and stuff. had portugese cuisine for dinner and bought lots of egg rolls and almond biscuit from this famous brand which has shops everywhere in macau. the egg rolls with seaweed and ba-hu is just heavenly. woohoo! haha
7th: went to make my adult HK ID. luckily my mum booked appt online if nt needa queue with all the maids eh which was pretty long. we were done in like 15-20mins? hah. then walked ard again, then met my 7th and 8th paternal uncle for lunch. mum left halfway cos she flying back sg tht night. then went to 7th uncle's hse to sit for a while and visit our lil cousins - 9 & 12. they're so cute- esp the lil boy, he has pretty pretty eyes! (: then met nora again, she brought us to the peak, it was freezing cold up there. we walked further up and it was super dark. certain parts you couldnt see anything at all, not even your hands! but the bird's eye view frm the top made all the walk and cold worthwhile (: went spaghetti hse for dinner. it was mega delicious (:
8th: lunch with both uncles. big uncle brought us to see some comp stuff and got us an 8gb thumbdrive each and a 8gb SD card. then it was off to airport back to sg. the freaking flight was like half hr delayed. wth. bt i spent my time observing the family sitting beside us. it was this family of 5 - mum, dad, 3 kids. i was amazed how they managed to bring their whole family on a vacation, esp with 3 kids. yes THREE. and they're very young kids. prolly below 7 for the 2 older ones since they're not in sch. and the other is only a toddler, prolly only 1-2 years old? cos the mum is carrying him in the seat. then the dad was sitting in the middle w his other 2 sons beside him on the left lane of seats. so the mum was feeding the milk bottle, after which the toddler slept. bt he wld wake up and cry every now and then cos he cant find a comfy position to slp in. then the mum wld carry him and walk a bit to pat him to slp. if not the dad will make some more milk to feed the baby to slp. can see tht the mum is real tired cos she also cant slp with her baby fidgeting or crying. then the dad has to ensure both his boys dont fall off while slping and turning about. and they brought 2 prams along. goodness. they're like super parents man. i seriously salute them. i wanna be like them in future. hoho.
and we waited fringging long for our luggages! cabbed home at 33 bucks. exact same cost as my mum when she cabbed home e day before! haha. home sweet home at 1+am. goodness. bt it was a really good break (:
9th: cabbed down to lido to catch 'knowing' with my bro. cos my bro has 2 free passes for SHAW and decided to watch the 1130 movie at lido when i just came out frm bathing at like 1045. i still had to change and stuff, so theres no way we can gt there by 1130. bt when we got there, they said 'knowing' has no free passes. i was like wth. bt in the end we still bought tic to watch 'knowing'. goodness la, waste our cab money and movie money cos it was $8 cos we didnt know it just premiers tht day. so okay. brrrr. graphics were good bt it wasnt really worth watching i guess, cos at the end of the movie, you dont know whts it abt, you dont know whts it trying to say, you dont get the msg the movie is trying to bring across (or maybe there wasnt even any agenda in the first place) then went tuition. thks tiffy for taking over me the past 3 lessons when i wasnt ard. yes my tutee is a naughty cheeky lil kid. lols.
10th: good friday! missed the combined service cos i had to look after lil devils - abt 20 of them, most frm eng con. they're really cute, bt they can gt super noisy and naughty. rawr! i love kids (: went cathay to meet 4h for lunch at astons. yes its relatively cheap and the food isnt too bad, so you can say tht its quite worth it. then starbucks, talked a lot, laughed a lot. it was meant to be a farewell for apr enlist, bt apparently ppl pangseh-ed, ended up only jt was there. anw jiateng i wish you all the best and take care in green camp okay! and we'll meet up when you're out ya! dont worry you'll survive! (: gna miss jt man. our bff, our dance and outing buddy. awww.
then went upstairs for guitar heroes! woohoo! its mega fun (: someone shld just invest in one then we can all play tgt. hoho! then went timbre with simin and tiffy. i thought it was at clarke quay, we walked clarke quay to and fro for like 3 times before we realise its actually at boat quay, further down the river on the other side. goodness! we spent like 1 hr looking for it. oops okay MY bad. its actually MY fault cos I thought it was there. bt alas we still made it there. we gt indoor seats, after which we managed to get the ones outside to hear the live band. woots! its pretty cool aye. my drink was nt too bad. mango sunrise! and shared a pizza (: we shld ask more ppl there nxt time! its a good place to chill and talk with good music. simply nice ambience la (: managed to catch 14 to clem. cabbed home frm the flyover and the meter jumped once only, bt thts still 4.50 -.- lols. cos its too quiet to walk across the flyover. nxt time i want someone to send me home. heh.
11th: went for street E for the very first time (yes cos think i missed the previous one) yes i was scared, nt exactly scared la, more of dno wht to say, how to approach ppl and how to say it and stuff. yup so it was a gd exp (:
12th: sunday was easter sunday! (: service was at 2. congrats zl, ben, zq for getting baptised! they're re-born now, hallelujah! its really happy to see ppl getting baptised, esp your friends, ppl of your age (: dinner at vivo. HAHA! terry we really didnt mean it =x
shit man, i've been thinking about someone A LOT lately.you reach your hand outi try to grab it,but you pull it back;its confusing.the truth hurts,but a lie's worse.tell me wht now
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'