Sunday, September 7, 2008;
♥ 11:12 PM
okay im finally here to update. im really so sorry. thou im like so super free this sept hols. bt im just so lazy to blog. kinda cant be bothered. bt think i still shld log in some events tt happened. which guess i'll be more than glad to read abt it once again in future. so here it is (:
okay lets date back all the way to prelims. just a short take on it dont worry.
GP kinda screwed. think my essay was crap, plus the fact that think almost the whole cohort did the same qns -_-''' compre was tough. esp the summary. cos it was on media and politics and its just fringging hard to paraphrase it cos its all those political words tht you just dont know how to rephrase it. damn. and AQ was freaking 2 qns. wth. oh screw it.
econs essay was a piece of cake cos its like on negative externalities. everyone will nail it. bt thts e point. every knows it so well tht i becomes so hard gt a gd grade. i dont mind if everyone gets a gd grade for it (: bt case study was kinda GG. marks allocation for 2nd case study is like 6,4,10,10. like wth. thts crap man. and it was on terms of trade. how i wish i really knew wht was it abt. oh well bt i tried, with whtever i knew, or i THOUGHT i knew rather. lets just cross our fingers for this bit.
math was another headache. its just so depressing. having tuition doesnt seem to be making things any better(so shld i stop it? is it just like a way to relief myself tht since im having tuition, i will do fine IN TIME TO COME) oh well when's tht gna be? february 30th? i'd really be god's grace if i can even scrap a PASS. thou thts pretty much wht im aiming for now at least. stats, complex and vectors seem to be my biggest problems. i dno why, bt i just dno how to do. guess i cant really apply the concepts well into the weird qns. guess i seriously need hell lot more prac to ensure i know the concepts really really well. and really understand the concepts, and nt just memorise the formulae or steps to tackle qns. bt smth kept me really happen was tht i cld do the ant qns! well it was only 4 marks and took up quite some time. was it worth it? i dno. bt still, conquering tt qns gave me sense of achievement (:
chem was pretty okay i guess. in fact i felt it was the best among all the other sub. like i can do, a few blanks here and there. time was tight bt i managed to complete most of them, or at least like gt thru every qns. just tht mcq kinda screwed up. think i did too slowly and organic chem kinda deproved. as in like concepts werent tht strong cos we kinda focused more on the rest towards the prelims cos we had a lot of prac for organic chem alr previously. so yea. guess mcq prac is wht i need. needa revise more on organic too. seriously, it was so bad tht think i might actually fail mcq. argh. damn it man. p2 and p3 was kinda okay luh, and i just had to screw p1. if nt a B for chem is possible. bt now, nt really likely anymore ):
lastly and the most disappointing one,
PHYSICS. sigh. seriously, i dno whts gt into me man. i wanted to do well for phy so badly tht i actually screw it totally. it was so similar to the mock we had. and yet i just failed myself. and i seriously hate kinematics. thought its supposed to be like the easiest or one of my better topics cos its like a relapse frm sec3 work. bt somehow dang. i always couldnt gt kinematics right. screw it luh. argh. so annoying! i did lasers qns as usual and guess i lost 14 on it alr cos i just couldnt finish! guess im like one of the rare ones who did tht qns. most did the electric current qns. well maybe i shld have taken a chance on tht instead. cos there were more calculations while the lasers its like almost all explanations. bt cos i did it for mock. and lasers its actually kinda standard as long as you know whts going on. its just copy and paste. bt time is wht you need. and in times of panic, it just makes it all worse cos i pretty much cant think properly anymore. whereas for electric current, cos i wasnt really sure of tht topic cos it was a topic which none of us paid much attention to cos it was like the last topic of J1 and its pretty much O lvl stuff too. bt tht one you really needa read your notes before you know whts gg on. yea so i didnt take chances on tht once i saw the lasers qns, i sorta just jumped on it. guess i shld have better time management.
p2 wasnt any better, esp the data analysis. it was just a total blow off. okay yea i didnt have time as usual and so i didnt really read all the stuff carefully and properly, sorta just jumped to the qns. bt since its DATA RESPONSE, well obviously i needa read the data carefully in order to understand whts going on. and data analysis is very much dependent on application of concepts, which we're all weak at. argh. to hell with it luh. as for the kinematics qns, i couldnt do it again. bt i was so pissed cos i counted smth wrongly luh. worst part is tt i didnt even draw the graph when i could have cos the values are alr given! damn it man. i really hate myself. just kill me man.
p1 was kinda better, bt somehow it seems like i do have quite a lot of mistakes after comparing with my friends. well yea we dno who's right and stuff, bt i dont really have a gd feeling abt my answers simply cos i'm always wrong luh. im just never at the upper hand in such circumstances. so i resign to fate. i really really pray tht i wouldnt get a U, which might really be my fate if i face reality. sigh. i cant believe i can actually gt a U for phy man. i've nv gotten a U for it. ahhh! save my soul! oh god pls have mercy on me. i believe it takes a miracle for me to pass phy.
im making such a din abt phy simply cos im actually thinking abt aerospace engineering. bt it'd be a real joke for a person who's thinking abt aerospace to actually fail phy. its total bullshit man. yes i really really want it badly. bt then it got me thinking. why of all subjects, PHYSCIS? i was thinking it might be a sign from god, telling me tht aerospace its nt the path he has planned for me. i really dno. im really lost. can someone enlighten me? oh god pls give me another sign. shall pray hard abt it.
post-prelims:wed:went lunch with class at cine hk cafe. then shopped for tchers' day gifts! yes town was flooded with AC ppl cos sci fac ended prelims on wed. it feels gd to hang out with the class once again (: the girls went to watch movie while the guys joined me and XW cos she didnt wanna watch, so i accompanied her. gt mrs yap a thermo mug, ms S - cup and i think its a costa( bt im nt sure ) saying 'goddnes with an attitude' hell cool. haha. mr K - interesting book. DK - new metal box to put his markers! its damn nice okay! hope he'll bring it to class! haha. we left out LCH cos he's away for reservice, plus we dont really like him. oops =x bookstores like kino and borders are kinda fun to hangout cos theres such so much things to look at - books, cards, notebooks and those lil stuff, CDs, DVDs and wht not. then dinner at food republic with some of them. yea so hang ard town almost the whole day cos our phy p1 was only 1hr15min, aft which we headed straight for town. tiring, feeld gd thou (:
thurs:study khakhis went to XW hse to give her a birthday surprise! yea met at woodlands to buy cake. it was so exciting cos we had to make sure she's still home. somehow stan managed to do it by asking seriously retarded dumb qns like hows the weather over at her hse. seriously, we laughed our ass off luh. its damn hilarious. bt it was fun and cool. we light the candles and press doorbell and sing happy birthday when she opened the door. birthday surprise a success! she was dumbfounded, seriously. took a vid, bt cant really see her shocked exp luh. bt we all know she is. lols. hang ard her hse for a while. then she had to leave to meet her friends who're celebrating her birthday too. bt guess she just loves us so much tht she cant be bothered even thou she's alr hell late. we even played arcade first. hoho. xuewen FTW! (:
then went town to shop for friend's gift and gifts for RV tchers. bt i seriously dno wht to gt, so left the job to huihui since she's out shopping too. i was a precious thoughts and it was so annoying cos whtever i wanna gt, there isnt stock! argh. went to made with love it was a rocking shop man. all the stuff are so nice. spent hell long in there cos i didnt know wht to gt cos theres so many choices and i cant possibly buy much cos its damn ex okay, plus i still dno wht to do for her. so in the end i got the kit thing with a lil of everything inside. tht solves everything. its a sweet shop for ppl who have money and passion for DIY stuff cos its really nice. as i the materials itself is nice, plus DIY stuff you can make it really really nice and pretty. wish i had more money and patience and creativity.
fri:tchers' day celebrations. kinda cool. tchers were happy to see tht we have lil smth for them cos we didnt gt them last yr. then waited hell long for ppl to gather before gg back RV. RV was rocking on tchers' day man this yr. cos they had some inter-class games thing. so when we gt back it was alr like 11+ 12, bt the sch was still full of ppl! tchers' was playing, students was playing. it was a lovely sight (: mrs lee slimed down a hell lot, she's been exercising and watching her diet. seeing my homies just feels so heart-warming. love them loads (: talked quite a bit to a few tchers and it felt kinda gd talking to them now. it feels kinda different, somehow. i dno how to explain it bt it just feels like friends talking to each other. its a kinda different perspective i guess. gave weiting a lil surprise for her birthday in advance. she's such a lovely girl (: talked to AC and found out tht she's leaving nxt year! awww. its really sad cos it means we wont see her anymore nxt time we go back ): wanted to chat with her a lil longer bt she had a game going on, plus we had to leave cos the rest are like waiting for us alr. sigh. really wanted to stay on to talk to her. bt nvm we shall make an effort to meet up this christmas or smth for a dinner or smth. yes we will.
lunch at je kfc. been so long ever since i went there with my homies again, well a few of them. it was our hang out. we just had so much to talk abt, abt recent stuff, olympics, embracing NS, and just simply catching up. so walk to IMM, found a place to sit a talk. it really felt so gd, just talking, crapping, catching up and hanging out and stuff. yea i miss all of them. talking to them feels different too. feels like everyone is really growing up. feels nostalgic. bt im happy (: left the area and walked ard. we kept stopping to talk! lols. its like every 5 steps we'll stop and talk in a circle. so funny luh. haha. walked back to mrt to pass simin her phone back cos she actually left it with huihui while she went for tuition. so muddle-headed. was in pop while waiting for her. then when she came, we stood in pop and started talking again. haha. its never ending man. bt this is e grp of friends which will stay close in our hearts for a long long time. i know tht for sure (: we'll meet up again, hopefully after their prelims, then catch up and talk again. heh heh <3
okay its getting late, okay its actually almost 1 alr. and guess i shld slp cos sch starts tmr! well i better gt myself prepared to face a new war as results will be out. well just have to see how it goes cos prelims is a done deal alr. ohya i got the service award for honours' night! yay! so much for my passion for entree (: okay i will blog abt RSAF open hse and nike 10k run and the mini hagen 'concert' at my church tmr i PROMISE! kudos! (:
lil' kids are really a joy <3your voice was the soundtrack of my summeryou know you're unlike any otheryou'll always be my thunderyour eyes are the brighest of all the coloursi wont ever love another
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'