Friday, July 18, 2008;
♥ 8:02 PM
omg i was so pissed ytd cos my internet died on me! then i realised my brother's internet died too. he say prolly is the router's problem. so irritating! it was like one whole night w/o internet, no MSN, no tofu! i almost died man, seriously. currently its still nt fixed, so yea im tapping onto someone's internet! oops =x haha.
i hereby proclaim: I AM PROUD TO BE A BLOOD DONOR! haha. YES, i donated blood today! went straight aft GP. didnt know it wld take so long cos there was a queue cos there were many donors too! so first station was to check if my vein is suitable for blood donation. 2nd was to fill up this 'declaration form'. 3rd was registration counter where they enter your particulars. then have to queue to see the doctor, which is basically taking your temperature and blood pressure. and omg my temp was 37.4 degrees! thats kinda high bt still fine. yeah bt i do know my normal temp is naturally higher than most ppl. like during temp. taking, my normal temp is like 37.2/37.3 degrees. YES, i know i'm HOT by nature. HAHA! okay so 5th was testing my blood if there's enough iron. its kinda cool. they take blood from the finger, then test it in copper(II) sulphate. its so interesting cos its like smth related to the chemistry i've learnt. so if the drop of blood floats, it means its lacking in iron; if it sinks, there's sufficient iron. and i saw mine sink, so YAY! haha. whts exactly the theory and reasoning behind this implication, i dno. bt it feels that im supposed to know cos iron and CuSO4 sounds like a familiar relationship. haha. oh wells.
then comes the last stop, which is the main station - the blood donation station. i was led to some bed, well it isnt exactly a bed, well whtever you call that. as i was waiting for someone to attend to me, i was really scared, seriously. maybe cos i'm a first timer. i really wished someone was there beside me, with me. almost teared. tried looking frantically for huihui bt couldnt find her. called her, bt no answer. glad that she called me back soon. she said she was still in the hub. really thank god she was still there. it felt a hell lot better after seeing her, and hearing her words of encouragement that its okay and i dont have to be afraid. it really acted as a stabilizer for me, and i know that i aint facing this alone. this made me further realise how insignificant one's own ability is, and how no man's an island, and just how much i'm dependent on my friends. its just sad that i dont have friends who'd go to the ends of the world for me, well at least not in my class. and yeah so i was there all alone, while the rest went for PE.
im scared of injections, bt nt to the extent of phobia. bt its really ironic. cos yet im sorta like anticipating the moment when nurse's gna inject me. well nt anticipating cos of excitment, bt to make myself mentally prepared for the pain that comes along. luckily she used the gauze to cover before injecting. 1st it was the painkillers, but it wht that hurts and stings, but was for a while only. after that it went numb i guess since i dont even feel the 2nd needle going in for the blood transfer. before i know it, i see my blood going thru the tubes into the bag. hoho. for a moment i really feel so proud of myself cos i cannot believe im actually donating blood! it felt really great! haha. okay then pump pump pump, the nurse was quite weird cos dno why she kept asking me if i was feeling okay.
when my bag was ard 3/4 filled, my vision started to darken and blur out, and my ears start to block out all the noises and sounds ard me, felt giddy and awful. the nurse came ard again, i dno how she knew, bt prolly my face colour changed, last thing i heard was she calling for help, then i passed out. the next thing i know when i regained consciousness is that the bed was lowered and i was lying down straight, and the nurse was putting the bandage ard my hand alr. thou it was only for a very short moment that i passed out, bt it was really scary, cos its like i dno whts happening to me. cos i didnt see anyone having to lie down there after donating blood. then the doc came ard to check my condition, took my blood pressure again, then said its prolly cos i didnt have a proper meal, or didnt have enough water, and asked me to lie and rest for a while first, in case i pass out again ltr.
apparently like their whole crew knew tht i passed out cos as i got outta bed and walk towards to tables to get drinks and biscuits, every nurse that saw me asked if i was feeling better. haha. oh man, i kinda feel so ashamed and lousy. passing out on my first blood donation. bleah. then i saw this other guy passing out too. then his friends went over to see if he was okay. i kinda felt sour, wished there was someone there for me too when i regained consciousness. oh well. on 2nd thought, maybe it was better tht no one was there to witness the weaker side of me, which not many ppl know of, and which i dont really want ppl to know of. anw so the whole process took me like 1.5 hours! ohya the guy who passed out was thanh's friend and i told him i passed out too, then he said he think he will pass out too cos he didnt have proper meal either. ltr during the day when i saw him again aft his blood donation, i asked him so if he passed out, and he say he did pass out. kinda funny. knowing he'll pass out he still went ahead. haha.
oh man, i realised it was such a long and detailed recount on my blood donation experience. HAHA! anw we celebrated Chriswini's birthday too at cafe! happy 19th yo! its been ages since we all stayed back and hang ard in sch as a class. feels good (:
okay anw back to thurs, 'half day' due to A levels chi listening compre. but it doesnt make a big diff for me cos my usual thurs ends at 210, missed GP. so technically, went sch for only chem tut, math tut and phy lect -_-" stayed in sch and played 'weiqi' and reverse with luci. kinda fun. i realised i have no strategy or whtsoever when playing these strategic games. LOLS! luci was not bad, MR CK was bravo, he had a lot of tactics and tricks when playing these games. and i was like WOW, cos every step he made, i was lost, i had no idea why at all. okay prolly strategic games just aint my cup of tea. then studied in the hub, had tuition at night.
wed wasnt feeling well, so stayed home and slpt till 1pm. omgosh. but sleep was excellent (:
mon had SC investiture. kinda sad as the 32nd SC stepped down and hand over. the 33rd council pres kinda left a deep impression on us, cos he actually cant even rmb his 4-lines pledge, wht a disappointment. but it was emotional and all as the stepped down pres made her speech, yeah tears and stuff. well most of them were crying as they walk down the hall, with the new council standing on both sides of the hallway. cos initially it was the other way round, the new council walked into the hall with the previous council standing on both sides of the hallway. its kinda like you know inviting the new council in and farwell the previous council out. sigh, baccalaurate's will come in no time.
our lovely yuexing left for aus on monday too! really sad that i couldnt send her off! ): afterall its 4 months before having her ard again. i miss her badly ): but glad she's settled down alr and everything is cool. she and tim are seriously so cute and sweet and lovely luh. haha. what bliss (:
on sunday, deacon daniel soh invited youths over to his hse for dinner and sharing. he was talking to us abt how we shld be passionate abt our religion when we're young, and continue to try to keep that passion and flame burning in us as we grow up and move on into the next stage of our lives when we graduate and step into the workforce. and like how do we keep our morals and values right, and keep out faith and stand firm in facing the world of temptations and even greater temptations as we grow up. kinda inspiring. i admit he's one inspiring leader of the church. and the food was great, as usual. he feeds us well, and never fails to. haha (:
movie screening in church on sat, watched a chinese movie 'love is...' its in canto with chi subtitles. its funny and yet close to heart. cos it touched the different kind of problems we face in love relationships in 3 different generations - the young, the couple, the old. the young one is about how passionate we are about our boy/girlfriends, that we often think we cant live w/o him/her, how they mean the whole world to us. the couple one is about how marriage is not a bed of roses, passionate love does die away with them, bt its all about understanding, tolerance, acceptance, faith and trust. the old one is about letting go cos in the movie the old man died, but the old lady was still very upset abt it after many years. its a very very touching movie i must say, really highly recommended cos the message it's trying to bring across was how GOD's love is eternal, and how our love between ppl shld be built upon god's love, its way much easier to manage and handle and sustain. its really amazing how god's love works in our lives. cos thru HIS love, we're able to look past ppl's weakness and lackings, and make them complete IN HIS love. in life, we're constantly learning how to love and let go, neither of them is easy, and neither are we able to complete grasp the art of it, not until we're re-united with the LORD.
best part was that one of the female lead in the movie came to our church that day, so its kinda funny. you see her sitting at the first row, then you see her in the movie. wonder how does she feel. watching her movie with everyone.haha. then she shared too abt her process of accepting christ and how her life changed ever since. she brought her 2 lil boys too. she had 1 more boy, bt think was only 2 yrs old, kinda hard to bring ard. bt oh man, 3 boys, and she still look gorgeous. seriously, she's pretty, elegant, glamourous. maybe its the Lord's light that's shining upon her (:
okay maybe i shld slp soon, cos there's GP mock tmr! ah SUCKS! bt my family just ordered macs delivery! should i eat should i eat? but its like supper, super unhealthy, but...argh.. haha.
and tofu isnt online! or nt online YET. i dno. got lots to talk abt, thou its only been one night. but just that one night, he's gt lots to spill alr. hoho. anw attending a wedding in church tmr too. busy busy day.
maybe its 23 days to prelims ):
i wanna be your bestfriend forever;
nothing more i can ask for (:
the voice of truth
tells me a different story
the voice of truth says
'do not be afraid'
